By Marilyn Phillips
Another
festive December is here but what is there to celebrate? Fighting back tears, I
drive my courageous daughter to the hospital. Rebekah has cystic fibrosis and
must be hospitalized often due to lung infections. You would think that I would
be used to frequent hospitalizations by now. But it is so near the holidays and
my daughter has never been quite so sick. Rebekah has pneumonia and bronchitis.
Her doctor said, "Rebekah might be hospitalized throughout the entire
Christmas holidays." So, she needed to be prepared for a long stay.
Rebekah must have strong antibiotics and receive numerous breathing treatments
to clear her congested lungs.
But
how can Rebekah be in the hospital during December? Distraught, I focus on all
of the yearly family activities my precious daughter will be missing, including
decorating our Christmas tree. Will Rebekah improve and get well enough to be
out of the hospital in time for Christmas Day?
December
is a time of celebrating. My family has wonderful traditions. But since Rebekah
is in the hospital, how can we participate? My daughter will miss family
parties, school festivities, last-minute shopping, driving around and looking
at Christmas lights, decorating our traditional holiday cookies and the
Candlelight Christmas Eve Celebration at our church. I am depressed as my
husband and I carry Rebekah's luggage to the small sterile room that will be
her home for at least the next two weeks.
Although
the situation is dreary, Rebekah has an amazing attitude. She openly shares her
faith in God with each doctor and nurse. She is a college senior and will
graduate in the spring. However, this semester was physically demanding and has
taken a toll on her fragile health. She is unable to sleep without sitting up. And
she coughs constantly.
Although
Rebekah is positive, I focus on the negative. Our house is not ready for
Christmas... no tree, no lights, no treasured decorations are displayed. And
because I have a new full-time teaching position, I have not even purchased one
single gift for Christmas. As I sit outside the hospital room, my tears flow
freely.
My
amazing daughter makes the best of the situation. Rebekah plays Christmas music
in her hospital room, reads the Bible, and watches Christmas videos. But I keep
focusing on all that we are missing due to the hospitalization.
Finally,
two days before Christmas, Rebekah has improved enough to be released from the
hospital. But she still has the IV PICC line in her arm and is required to
administer daily IV medications for two additional weeks. Once we arrive home,
we hurriedly unpack Rebekah's luggage, and my family quickly puts up the
evergreen tree and a few decorations. Due to time constraints, we only put on
the minimum amount of lights and tree decorations.
The
next day, my husband and I go shopping and buy all the presents in one day and
frantically wrap the gifts and put them under the tree. I look at the remaining
unused decorations and one box marked FRAGILE. I know what is in the box... it
is the Nativity set. But there is no time to unwrap and set out our beautiful
Nativity figurines. Memories flood my mind as I gaze at the box. I recall that
each year since my two children were small, we read the Christmas story from
the Bible on Christmas Eve. Each child would move a figurine as my husband read
Scripture describing the beautiful angels, hardworking shepherds, and baby
Jesus. Exhaustion sets in. I decide the contents of the box can wait as I slide
it in a corner. I go to bed exhausted.
Although
Christmas Day arrives, I feel no joy. We go to my sister-in-law's lovely home
for lunch. As always, her house is beautifully decorated. Christmas music plays
in the background and our entire family is there, including my niece and her
children.
We
sit down to a festive meal with all of our holiday favorites... roasted turkey
and cornbread jalapeño dressing, cranberry sauce, mashed potatoes, green beans
and a variety of desserts including pecan pie, pumpkin pie, and fudge. The
table is beautifully set with gorgeous Christmas China and scented candles. My
daughter is so happy and grateful to be part of this holiday event.
Before
we begin to eat, my husband is asked to say the prayer. But to our surprise...
my niece's spunky four-year-old daughter, Kaylie, proclaims, "I want to
say the prayer." So, we all giggle and give her permission to pray
thinking Kaylie will be praying for lots of toys for herself. However to our
delight, Kaylie says, "Thank you God for Christmas because we can
celebrate Jesus' birthday." Suddenly, I fight back tears as I realize that
I haven't even thought about the birth of Jesus this entire Christmas season.
I
smile and silently thank God for Kaylie's heartfelt prayer which focuses on the
birth of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. But Kaylie isn't through. During
the meal, she proceeds to ask each adult, "Did you know that we are
celebrating Jesus' birthday today?" And in response each adult laughs and
says, "Yes!" To our amazement in the middle of the meal, Kaylie
proclaims, "Let's sing 'Happy Birthday to Jesus' to celebrate." We
each swallow our mouthful of turkey and dressing quickly and begin singing a
loud and off-tune version of the "Happy Birthday" song to Jesus.
Kaylie's sparkling eyes watch gleefully to ensure that each adult is singing.
We pass her approval. Later in the meal, Kaylie requests that we sing to Jesus
again. And so we do. Kaylie's holiday wish is granted.
Finally,
the dinner is over and all presents are unwrapped. We hug relatives and leave.
Once at home, we unload our Christmas gifts and goodies, and I sit to ponder
the day's events in front of the fireplace. I notice a box in the corner. I
open the box marked FRAGILE! I gently un-wrap the Nativity figurines and place
them on the coffee table. And I realize that during the hospitalization, I was
busy dwelling on negative thoughts and the activities that we were missing.
Instead, I should have been thinking about all of God's blessings. Gazing at
the nativity scene I suddenly have an overwhelming peace and I experience the
joy of the season. I pray and praise God for the blessings of my family and
Rebekah's improving health but most of all I thank God for the gift of eternal
life. The prayer of a four-year-old child helps me again focus on the reason we
celebrate Christmas... the birth of Christ... and I whisper, "Happy
Birthday, Jesus."
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